“What if you wake up some day, and you’re 65, or 75, and you never got your memoir or novel written; or you didn’t go swimming in warm pools and oceans all those years because your thighs were jiggly and you had a nice big comfortable tummy; or you were just so strung out on perfectionism and people-pleasing that you forgot to have a big juicy creative life, of imagination and radical silliness and staring off into space like when you were a kid? It’s going to break your heart. Don’t let this happen.” –Anne Lamott
So I have now done seven weeks of looking after myself, still don’t really know how to describe these post, where as I have been obsessed in the past with fitness and basically self hating this is not that and I hope never to be in that place again. I have finally started a new chapter of self love and wanted to document it and as if having a normal and fashion Instagram wasn’t enough I decided to set a third one up!
emmas_happy_healthy_world is a celebration of me loving my body! I have literally spent the first 34 years picking myself apart, self hating and punishing my body instead of celebrating and loving it! In the last six months I have gained weight, my body shape has completely changed and my mental health around my body has made an unrecognisable change.
So this was the hardest section of the wales coastal path I have done so far. Cardigan to Newport was 21 miles of ascending and descending along the beautiful cliffs of Pembrokeshire.
There was some tears, moments I wanted to give up, pep talks to myself, sunburn and a bad ankle. But I kept going (mainly because there is no way of being able to give up). I was more mentally exhausted then physical, I slept the night suffering with headaches from the sun, I’m pretty sure I got sun stroke. I carried 4L of water though it wasn’t enough and did the last 6 miles with no water.
Although I’m very happy I did it, I’m definitely not in a hurry to do that section again!
So the day after the walk was going to be a rest day…….. Instead I did, A Sea Swim, Rock Climbed and Walked 10 miles because I’m crazy! I’m convinced it’s the sea air (as I’m writing this I have now been two weekends, three weeks away from the sea and I feel like a slug!!)
Here I went make up free all day!! Which I love doing although I look a lot scary on this picture! I also got straight back into the gym. Thai Chi followed by Pilates this evening which after all the walking over the last few days felt amazing!! Also after a few days away, I got back to normal eating, I can’t you how much I was craving a big bowl of veggies!
The next day after gently getting back into my rountine, I did a double Pilates session and after a long weekend of walking it felt amazing to stretch.
However I have noticed in the last week that old demons have started popping in my end. The old voices that would tell me to eat less and exercise more. That made me weigh myself every hour and punish myself with extra long workouts. I have been working extremely hard to ignore them, they talk crap. And now that I have already been done that path I know what to avoid to ever being like that again. Some days are harder than others but overall I am doing ok. #balance
After spending the first half the week hiking and the second half doing 4 Pilates classes the evening of this picture, it was a friday the class felt so hard!! My body ached and felt sore! But I did get through the class which took a lot of will power not to give up on it so super proud of myself!! #keepgoing
A weekend of laughing, food, wine and no exercise! So so much delicious food!
I had some guilt about not exercising but tried to ignore it! I went back to the gym the next day and I tied not to be hard on myself.
Ten years of selfies and I still can’t figure out the mirror selfie!! My day was so good!
☑️ 4 Miles walk to/from work ☑️ 30 mins cycling ☑️ 60 mins yoga ☑️ 4l of water drunk ☑️ 8 Servings of Fruit and Veg ☑️ No meat.
Feeling good, not punishing myself for the weekend! But was (still am) missing my normal weekend hike feeling!! Less then two weeks and I’m back in Wales hiking.
Also my leg had been playing up again, it only seems to be an issue when walking! Not an issue when cycling or doing yoga. #balance
I completed my first high intensity workout in probably 2 years! It was so incredibly hard but rewarding and pretty sure it took me about four days to recover. I really didn’t want to go the gym this evening because honestly I had a pretty bad day! But I made myself go and feel ten times better right now (expect the legs) ☑️ 4 Miles walk to/from work ☑️ 45 Mins Kettlecise ☑️ 30 Mins Cycling ☑️ 4l of water ☑️ 6 Servings of Fruit/Veg ☑️ No meat ☑️ Not enough sleep
Two more classes tomorrow! #balance
My whole body ached from head to toe but I managed to push myself to my usual classes & even some cycling. For me the time out of my own head is much needed but classes like yoga and Pilates usually leaves me crying at the end due to being forced to relax and take time for me. After this Pilates class I was left crying for 30 mins after, who knew I hold so much in! ☑️ 4 miles walk to/from work ☑️ 45 Mins Thai Chi ☑️ 30 Mins Cycling ☑️ 60 Mins Pilates ☑️ 4L Water ☑️ 6 Servings of Fruit/Veg ☑️ No Meat ❎ Too Much Sugar #balance