“Treat yourself as if you already are enough. Walk as if you are enough. Eat as if you are enough. See, look, listen as if you are enough. Because it’s true.” – Geneen Roth
So I am onto my third week, still don’t really know how to describe these posst, where as I have been obsessed in the past with fitness and basically self hating this is not that and I hope never to be in that place again. I have finally started a new chapter of self love and wanted to document it and as if having a normal and fashion Instagram wasn’t enough I decided to set a third one up! emmas_happy_healthy_world is a celebration of me loving my body! I have literally spent the last 34 years picking myself apart, self hating and punishing my body instead of celebrating and loving it! In the last six months I have gained weight, my body shape has completely changed and my mental health around my body has made an unrecognisable change.
So last Monday I finished work and burst into tears! For no reason what so ever, I didn’t feel sad or angry I just needed to cry, during the day I ate well, drank 3 litres of water and had every intention of going to yoga! Until I got home from work then realised the only thing in the world I wanted was a hug of my best friend & a cry! Turns out I was exhausted and feeling slightly overwhelmed (not sure why). Aimie provided the hug & carbs! She knows I love carbs! Not to mention lots of kisses from Olly & too see my little Jelly Bean growing! Aimie is my person because she knows how to make me feel better, loved and feeds me pasta! These posts and my instagram are about finding balance and not about weight lose which keeps me in check when it comes to my mental health.
While the sun has been shining and to get as much vitamin D as possible I have been walking to work! Its not a big walk, two miles either way! But it does get me to my target of 10,000 steps a day and such a little change to my daily routine is really improving my mood! Fresh air, sunshine and I listen to comedy podcasts as I walk! I have literally been laughing out loud as I walk! Arriving to work with a big grin and an extra burst of energy!
Some days are yoga & smoothies other days are muffins, pampering and a good gossip! Physical health means nothing without mental health! Love the inside as much as you want to love the outside! By mid week I was still a little fragile so decided to have a mini pamper session and get my hair done! Due to work commitments I am usually the only one in the salon when I get there in the evening! I have had the same hairdressers for ten years now and have known him about 18 years so nothing is censored between us! Fresh look and a good bloody gossip!
On Saturday I walked ten miles and no way did that cover the amount of food and drink I had during the afternoon! My tummy & heart were bursting with love 💛💜🧡💙💚 as I enjoyed an afternoon of sunshine with my sister and if it comes off a van I will eat it!! Memories aren’t always made exercising & dieting! Somethings are worth the muffin top!
The day was filled with burgers, beers, brews and baked goods! we laughed, we cried and we hugged! When I was obsessed with “fixing my body” I turned down so many events to diet and exercise! I missed 12 months of my life to ensure I looked perfect from the outside! My sister would say I am perfect now!
The last week has been about rest and feeding my soul! I have read, ate, surrounded myself with loved ones & been gentle on myself! My leg is starting to feel a lot better! And I started to really appreciate how very happy I actually am at the moment! All the things I wanted six months ago have been replaced with a different realty and I couldn’t be happier with where my life is at the moment! I wear the above outfit on a date I had on Sunday just gone, I felt curvy, sexy, strong and womanly! Words I thought I would never say about myself ever!
By the end of the week I was ready to go into a new week of exercise and veggies! Mentally I felt better, I felt slightly less exhausted, most importantly I felt incredibly loved and happy!