I wasn’t sure if I was going to write this post or not then I realised I write about everything the good, the bad and the seriously ugly. So with a full disclaimer, I decided to write this, Day 70 of my 80 days of summer challenge marked 6 months since I was left heartbroken by him who shall not be named. Now I haven’t just been counting down the time like some crazed bag lady but as a way to celebrate my victory. You see on the day it all happened my best friend sent me the below quote.
Because let’s face it when you get your heart broken no amount of you can do betters or he wasn’t worth it will ever in a million years make you feel better. I mean eventually, we realise it and laugh at the fact we were ever sad about them. But until that time and it varies for everyone and every relationship we are happy living in our bubble of despair and that’s ok.
What Aimee did by sending me the quote basically told me it’s ok, take your time it will all come together. So I set a countdown on my phone, of which I didn’t even look at until about month five, I just left it counting down in the background while I went through the hurt and the pain, while I started to grow and move forward. And what I discovered was that time moves so quickly and some breakups are harder than others but ultimately in 6 months a hell a lot can change and it flies by so quickly that you barely notice.
Just think in 6 months I tried 40 new things, did a 30 day fitness challenge and loved 80 days of summer. And that’s just all in my spare time. I have met some incredible women, got more responsibility at work and totally fell in love with job. I have been on dates good and bad, I have become comfortable in my own skin and most importantly I have healed, I gave myself time to move on and enjoy being on my own.
So on day 70 of my 80 days of summer challenge I decided to end it for a few reasons but also because it felt like a good time to end it. I am not the same person I was 6 months ago, I probably wouldn’t even recognise that woman anymore. So the break up that I was thought I would never get over is now just a memory that feels like years ago. Not only did I get over it but I have had the best 6 six months of my life, I am extra excited about the next six months and the six months after that. But for now, I need some rest doing a 140 days worth of challenges back to back has made me exhausted and in some much need of sleep.
Believe me when I tell you that not everyone you lose is a loss, do not be afraid of letting go. Be afraid of losing yourself holding onto to someone else. So here is to a new adventure of which I am sure will be filled with laughter, tears, love and heartbreak. Heres to the past without which there is no future. And thank you to everyone who has been helping and supporting me through the last 6 months, thank you for all the beautiful emails and DM’s I have received it really means the absolute world to me.