“Strength doesn’t come from what you can do. It comes from overcoming the things you once thought you couldn’t.”
Ok, so this challenge is so much much harder than I could have ever have imagined, who knew I hated exercise so much now?! If you are wondering “what challenge is she going on about” then you can catch up here.
However, I am committed and convinced that 30 days of fitness is going to help me get back into healthy habits and clear my mood because honestly I am done with feeling this now! I can safely say that its nowhere near as fun as 40 new things in 40 days although I am learning a lot about myself so swings and roundabouts I guess. Anyway, I am rambling now, so here are the first four days………..
So my beautiful friend Maddie told me she knew the perfect place to get all the food I needed to start my 30 days of fitness. After all, fitness isn’t all about how much you exercise, fitness is how you nourish your body too. She took me to this great Asian shop in Rusholme where I literally got three bags filled with fruit and vegetables for less than a tenner. So despite it being 34 miles from my home, it is now where I am shopping. This was the perfect start to my 30 days and honestly after the way, I have been living recently my body definitely could do with some vitamins and goodness.
Day 2 I thought I would make the most of the beautiful weather and go for a run along the canal, recently I have found running so relaxing it tends to be the only time of the day that I can actually turn my brain off and not worry about anything other than staying upright. I managed 5.7 miles before I gave up and I usually find that it’s my brain that actually gives up first, I mean what do marathon runners think about while running? I don’t like running with music on as I am not the most aware person whilst running and I just know if I had headphones in I would probably run into something. But day two was successful because I wouldn’t have done any exercise if it wasn’t for this challenge so it’s a small win.
Now I am carrying a little extra weight I have started to feel a little self-conscious about going the gym at the weekend especially as its so busy. Plus its a new gym so that doesn’t help, well the sun was still shining I decided to take my laptop outside and do a HIIT workout in the garden. I literally lay on the grass like this for an hour after the workout, which only lasted 30 mins. I can’t believe there was a time when I did two HIIT classes a day, 6 days a week, I honestly thought I was going to throw up possibly die. I was a big wake up call to me about how much I have let my fitness slip which I guess happens a lot when you end up in a relationship. But now I am single I am looking forward to having some me time.
I am a massive fan of yoga so day four was disappointing as I went to try the yoga class at my gym and really hated it, in fact, most of the time I was thinking about walking out. Not that the yoga teacher was bad but she just rubbed me up the wrong way and instead of feeling relaxed and focused, I spent the whole hour stressed and anxious. However, I did stay for the full hour so at least I can say that I am just about managing this challenge. The class was also at 9pm which is the only time I can do classes near home so I am rather proud I hadn’t talked myself out of going during the day.
So the first four days are over and I didn’t die which is always a bonus, I am trying not to make this negative or be hard on myself but actually, it’s really hard. I guess more than anything I am disappointed in myself I used to love being into fitness and looking after myself and I kinda let that slip because of a man. I guess I am still finding out a lot about myself.