“Don’t rely on someone else for your happiness and self-worth. Only you can be responsible for that. If you can’t love and respect yourself – no one else will be able to make that happen. Accept who you are – completely; the good and the bad – and make changes as YOU see fit – not because you think someone else wants you to be different.”
Ok, ok I know I have been a little random with my blog posts lately (don’t worry I have lots and lots written now for the next week of weeks ) but honestly just needed a break, a break from blogging and basically a break from being an adult. I just got to the point where I need a break and to spend lots of quality time with my family and friends and just enjoying their company. I love every aspect of my life, I’m extremely lucky to be doing what I’m doing and never take anything for granted but a big part of this blog is about being happy and for me being happy has a lot to do with my health both mentally and physically and in the last year my physical health has really suffered and my mental health has definitely been pushed to its limits. So I turned everything off and took some time for myself which is perfectly fine and if anything should be done more often and by everyone, I am now feeling refreshed, full of ideas and excited to get going again. So I’m not going to go into too much detail about what I have been doing with my friends and family ( basically it was lots of cuddles, tears and laughs ) but here are some of the little moments from the last week which have left me smiling and more positive than ever.
My job brings me so much happiness, the occasional chest pains but mainly happiness. I have worked so incredibly hard to be able to get the job of my dreams and although it hasn’t really sunk in that I have it I am extremely thankful.
With working every hour I possibly can, has unfortunately made me realise who my friends are and who really supports me during hard times. Friends I have had since my teenage years have turned their backs on me because I don’t have enough time to spend on them and their lives. Whereas people whom have only been in my life a couple of years as ex work colleagues have been ringing constantly to make sure I am looking after myself. I have chosen not to focus on the negative, yes it is sad that people I once considered friends are no longer in my life but how amazing is it that I now have new friends, friends who remind me just how wonderful people can be.
How adorable is this picture, Alisa and her great grandad enjoying cuddles. I don’t get to spend nearly enough time with my grandad which is something I am working on because he was my inspiration growing up and continues to push me to be a better person.
Spending time with my sister whilst getting some fresh air makes me incredibly happy. To read more about our special day out, check out our Go Ape adventure here.
Last weekend I went to Blackpool to see the lights with a very special person and although I’m not ready yet to talk about him (you are all going to be so shocked you will fall off your unicorn) I had a wonderful night. Going to Blackpool always reminds me of my childhood and naturally I couldn’t go the seaside without a bag of doughnuts or getting an ice cream.
It took me probably a whole decade to understand this quote, I now never save anything for special occasions which sometimes means I’m ridiculously overdressed for some events. But really you could have things. But really you could have things, and that’s all they are things, that you never use. Things you have spent hard earned money on because of its use and never actually enjoy it. How backwards does that sound! Saving things is an absolute waste, so break out that special bottle of champagne, put on that lovely underwear and eat take away off those special plates because today is a special day.
Exploring Manchester, my whole life is now in Manchester, well my whole life expect my bed. Currently I am still commuting into the city which is driving me slightly nuts, however it gives me a couple of hours a day to sing along to some very cheesy 90s pop music in my car. In my spare time I am looking for somewhere in the city to live at the moment I’m leaning towards a flat share because what would be the point of living in Manchester if I could never afford to go out! I have loved Manchester since I was a teenager and would spend all my pocket money on train tickets just so I could explore the city and twenty years later I still do actually the same.
A good girly gossip, I’m sure in the past I took my free time for granted. Now I squeeze as much into my free time as humanly possible. Of which I don’t have a lot but am trying to split between family, friends and the guy we aren’t talking about yet. Last week I meet up with my friend Natalie to have a good old catch up and so I could met her baby daughter properly. Who is as beautiful as her mummy. Not to mention over indulging in this bad boy of a milkshake which by the way was as delicious as it looks. Getting to spend time with people I love makes me extremely thankful for the people in my life.
At the moment getting to spend time with this little Angel is my favourite thing to do. I love spending time with her and my beautiful sister. I just wish there was more hours in the day so I could spend more time with them. Alisa is smiling and laughing now which absolutely melts me heart.