This week has been physically amazing I have pushed my body in ways I could never have imagined unfortunately mentally it has been absolutely exhausting. You might remember a couple of weeks ago I talked about feeling fat still and needing to visit a doctor, well I have seen a doctor ( I cried through the whole appointment ). I guess at the start of wanting to get fit and healthy I assumed that once I was slim I would be instantly happy unfortunately that is not the case, in fact I could actually be more unhappy then when I was overweight. I can’t stress enough that if you have a lot of weight to lose please see a doctor first. Or even if you don’t feel right mentally after losing weight please seek help, your mental health is just as important as your physical health. If you beat up your body as much as you beat yourself up mentally, how broken and damaged would your skin be?!
I am off work from next week for two weeks and have a few trips planned and I’m not going to lie I’m slightly worried that I’m not going to do enough exercise and make two many bad food choices. I really am going to have to be tough on myself for a couple of weeks. I certainly have not come this far to only come this far!!! I have started planning each day because not exercising makes me extremely moody and rubbish food makes me feel absolutely rubbish.
Glorious, glorious exercise!
I started the week with three days rest mainly because my body was crying out for it but I didn’t enjoy it in the slightest, my gym has become as much about the social aspect as it is the actual fitness. After my rest I felt ready to take on the world again and used my new found enthusiasm to get through five gym classes in one day over three sessions and amazingly it made me feel on top of the world.
I’m still sticking with Les Mills Grit, I can safely say I have never done a exercise that shows results so quickly. My arms don’t look like my arms and more, they are looking toned and strong. Not to mention my stomach, although I have a very long way to go with it, it’s starting to get toned and my waist is losing inches weekly. I’m pretty sure if I keep these classes up my body will be unrecognizable in two months.
Naturally as always walking is such a big part of my fitness routine and I have Dave to thank for that, sometimes the gym just doesn’t cut it, sometimes I just want fresh air in my lungs and the wind in my hair.
Knowing that I won’t be able to make a lot of my own food next week I have made a real effort to eat lots and lots of fruit and vegetables. As always breakfast is my largest meal of the day and the meal I put the most effort into. I think I have a bit of an egg obsession they are just so perfect and yummy. I am still not eating meat, not in a crazy fad diet way but my body just never wants it, I certainly don’t believe in depriving myself or cutting out food groups for the sake of weight loss, I believe in listening to your body and giving it what it wants and most importantly what it needs.
It turns out that my obsession with cake has been overtaken by my obsession with ice cream, and boy has there been some ice cream in the last week. Now that the water weather has returned so has the ice cream vans, I mean ice cream that’s practically delivered to your front door is almost impossible to resist. Winter better hurry up before I turn into a ice cream.
I ordered some chocolate from Chocolate baby Uk and enjoyed a relaxing night watching a movie and eating these yummy chocolates and that’s ok I had actually done five gym classes that day so all the chocolate was guilt free and yummy.
Goals for next week!
1. Don’t be so hard on yourself.
2. Try a new exercise class.
3. Don’t have too many treats.
4. Make sure you do 4 grit classes.
5. DONT GIVE UP! YOU CAN DO THIS!
Those glorious feelings!
Every week I am more amazed with my body, at the start of wanting to get fit my only goal was to be able to walk up a flight of stairs without getting out of breathe now my body can literally do hours of exercising and never get tired. I feel strong, powerful and lean, feelings that I never thought I would feel. My mental health isn’t right yet, I was so sure my GP wouldn’t take me seriously when I spoke of the impact on my life still feeling fat was having but she did, we spoke for almost an hour and she has been looking at different treatments for me and what would work best going forward. I will absolutely keep you posted on this because I truly believe that mental health is important and should be spoke about more than it is as its nothing to be ashamed about.